Thursday, May 7, 2015

Final

Final!

1. Even though i came in at the fourth quarter, there was lots of things in class we did i enjoyed. I liked how you had us remake a painting and then made a way to set up a poem. I thought it was really cool how we really got to express our selves because how flexible you let us be with the assignments. I think when i was in normal English i felt like i couldn't really say what i was wanting to because i was more concerned on grammar and every possible mistake. But writing on my own now feels more free and in this class i think we got more tips on how to bring out the deeper creativity.



2. Being able to see other classmates writing on their blogs was cool because i felt like when i read their work i could connect with them. I think one of my favorite ones  I read was a story of her losing her brother in the army.


3. Setting up my blog was confusing at first, but only because I came in the class at fourth quarter. Once I got the hang of it I liked using it. I don't think I will to continue to use it because I use tumblr. I actually didn't come up with my blog name, Callie Burk did.


4. Sometimes I feel awkward writing in something that someone else will read. I do have a personal one at home but I also write poems in my notes on my phone when I would feel sad. I like being very open when I write so I have to be careful who I share with.


5. Purple
Purple lilacs filling the air
beautiful and delicate
gentle and free
all the little things I try to be


6. I'm choosing this one because it was the first one I did when I joined this class.
Edward Hopper Inspired

         Ever since he was fifteen his dad has had him working the family gas station. His father was tough man, always telling him to keep the place clean, making sure he was always doing his work. As the young fifteen year old grew into his twenties he watched as all his friends left for college and left him and the town behind and forgotten. But of course he stayed because his dad was sick. One of the things his father told him was to always stop what you're doing when the wind blows, stop just for a second and breath in the air and take in your surroundings. 
       With his dad passed he officially took over the family business. To this day he still keeps the place in perfect shape personally cleaning each pump nightly. But really it was just an excuse to be outside on the nice summer nights. And every time there is a strong breeze and the trees are shaken or the long grass is blown over he will always stop and take it in. He knows his father is still there watching over him.

7. I don't see myself having any future in any creative writing. I don't think I am good because it feels really forced. This differs from other writing because there's almost no rules, you can express how ever you want.
8. Whatever path you take in life make sure you choose that path for yourself and only you. Don't base any decisions on your friends, boyfriend, girlfriend, or parents. Its only you in the end.

Wednesday, April 15, 2015

101 Facts about Me

101 Things about Me



1. I love Sushi
2. with a side of extra avocado sauce
3. I have a big place in my heart for Fleetwood Mac and Pearl Jam
4. The first concert I ever went to was Nevershoutnever in 7th grade
5. I currently have red hair
6. I dye my hair
7. Its naturally light brown
8. I had braces for two years 
9. My favorite color is black
10. Not because im goth but because it goes with everything
11. I used to be obsessed with buying perfumes in middle school
12. so now I am stuck with a large inventory of gross body sprays
13. My wiener dog is the closest thing I have to a boyfriend
14. But she is the love of my life so its okay
15. My favorite feeling is warm blankets out of the dryer
16. I am a ridiculously self conscious person
17. I have a sad love for buying candles
18. I totaled my first car after two weeks
19. I crashed into the side of a bridge on black ice
20. I remember Britney Spears was playing in the background
21. I've never broken a bone but I've had stiches
22. One of my favorite books is thirteen reasons why
23. Around the time I read it I was suicidal
24. That was when I started using reading as a distracting mechanism  
25. I Am in love with young Leonardo DiCaprio
26. I always have incense burning in my room
27. I hate hot yoga
28. My favorite fruit is a clementine
29. My favorite vegetable is broccoli
30. especially when its cooked in teriyaki sauce
31. I love the lion king
32. I've never had a boyfriend
33. I Love to draw
34. I wish I was better though
35. My parents are divorced
36. I have two tattoos I want right now
37. I love the sound of acoustic guitar
38. I wish I knew how to play it
39. I have glow in the dark stars on my ceiling
40. My middle name is Renee'
41. I needed my baby blanket to sleep till like 6th grade
42. I love going on long pointless drives
43. aka I love wasting gas
44. If I could eat texas roadhouse rolls for the rest of my life I would
45. I have an inflatable unicorn head hanging in my room
46. I get jealous very easy
47. especially over stuff I shouldn't
48. I'm in love with people that don't love me back
49. I push away the people that actually do care about me
50. I don't like people touching my feet
51. I love the feeling of someone's hand running through my hair
52. I love bath salts
53. but not in the illegal drug use way
54. I'm very good at chubby bunny
55. I am a sunset enthusiast
56. I floss once a day
57. I love movies
58. I love fuzzy socks
59. I am a very energetic person with my friends
60. I was voted class clown for some reason -.-
61. I have a big fear of being hated
62. I have OCD
63. I used to self harm
64. I don't let my past problems define me as a person
65. I did a mission trip to Nicaragua last year
66. I want to live there so bad.
67. I scheduled my first tattoo appointment yesterday
68. I haven't told my mom
69. I was in love with a boy
70. A couple days ago i realized i wasn't anymore
71. It only took me four years of high school to realize my worth
72. I wish i had never tried alchohol
73. I wish i was a better writer
74. I can write really good poems
75. But only if I'm depressed
76. I babysit the cutest baby
77. I love to sing
78. I only sing when I'm alone
79. I'm scared of the future
80. I have a kitty named Carly
81. If i could listen to one song for the rest of my life it would be Landslide
82. The Stevie Nicks version
83. I grew up on the dixie chicks though
84. I talk to myself way too much
85. I hate flower crowns
86. I hate wanna be "flower child" girls
87. Peonies are my favorite flowers
88. I want my funeral to be a celebration
89. Like there needs to be a buffet and a DJ
90. I want two babies when i get older
91. I want to move to Bolder Colorado
92. I love sour patch kids
93. But I'm on a very strict diet
94. I just texted my mom asking for sour patch kids
95. I'm bad at diets
96. Im almost done with this list
97. I like Pina Coladas
98. I like getting caught in the rain
99. Im not into yoga
100. I think i have half a brain
101. Never made love at midnight


Lyrics Shuffle

Lyrics Shuffle

Breathless in your loving arms

I wanna be your light
And baby you're my night

You're the cure, you're the pain 
You're a nasty scar

Dreams taken away to the dark side

My beating heart and a thousand stars
It'll leave you thinking out loud

We'll take this way too far
Kiss me and come unstuck 

Oh, my world you brought to life

Lyrics Lyrics Lyrics

Lyrics <3

Fire Escape
By: Foster The People

I Like to stick to walls 
Observing conversations, lifting them when they fall
I am a fire escape, my spine is made iron 
And my heart pumps out old red paint 
Save yourself 


#88
By: Lo-Fang

And I know that the phantoms on the edge of my dreamsAre shapes I created but they still just disrupt my sleepAn idea growing quietly from something withinSpreads quicker than the cancer that destroyed your mother’s skinAnd it feels like a shadow at about 5amWhen the streets are so empty and the fragile can’t pretendCan we all rush inGet me back into the treesIf this dream wasn't happening would it still feel as real?Will it ever changeOr will it always stay the same, it always stays the same.


I Cant Help Falling in Love With You

By: Elvis Presley ( Except try listening to Fleet Foxes version)

Like a river flows surely to the sea

Darling so it goessome things are meant to betake my hand, take my whole life toofor I can't help falling in love with you


The Ancient West 

By: Have Mercy

So keep me up and tell me every fear
When you were young and the days passed like years
Between the booze and the "remember whens"
I'm telling all the same stories again

You pray to him he is a god to you
But does he hold your head and hear your blues?
I won't be the one who makes you choose
And give up everything that you can't lose
Old notions from the ancient west
They hang your head and pray for the best
So hang your head and pray for the best



Music to Me

       Music...


         No matter where i am, who I'm with, what I'm doing i can always listen to literally ANY type of music. Yes even "screamo". But at the end of the day when I'm laying in bed i like really soft acoustic music that can kind of drift you away and make you feel lighter or a sleepy sense. A lot of the bands i listen to aren't very known but some easy ones to compare it to that people recognize right away is Bon Iver, Nick Drake, Manchester Orchestra, etc. I think there is something really special about that style of music, a type that you can kinda fall in love to.

        When i used to listen to music i didn't really have an open opinion because you have to listen to what was popular. I honestly do not like pop music, its just all the same. I hate hearing the same lyrics in every song just with a different background beat. Like the other day i was watching the MTV movie awards and someone preformed a song that just pretty much repeated "girl drop that kitty down low"? I just kind of sat back and had to laugh because who actually enjoys that music when their alone? So i can pretty much listen to all music except techno and pop. A song really needs those strong things like an interesting tun and lyrics with deep meaning to pull me in and pay attention.
 
      What i really love to just belt out when I'm in a good mood is old classic rock. Like i LOVE Eddie Vedders voice. But then again i need those times when i can just jam so ill listen to stuff like one of my favorite bands right now "Have Mercy" or "Foxing" and they're kinda depressing but i like it. Also, maybe some Grouplove, The 1975, Haim, The Virgins, Bear Hands, Bleachers, Sinai Vessel, OH WOW the list could go on forever but I'm just going off the top of my head!

      Without music i think there might be less love in the world. I really can't imagine going without it! I mean we have songs for everything, I even remember artist playing when i got my first kiss (john mayor). I don't even know why i remember that, I just think its funny how music can stick with you even when you don't mean for it to.
     
     


{Pillow} Talk

{Pillow} Talk
Haiku:
Look up on a hill
Somewhere way far out of reach
Screaming out for you


I don't want to talk about my dreams with people. My dreams are all over the place, they're scary. Im scared of my nightmares, scared of why my brain is sending these sad things into my dreams. I remember my first nightmare, i was probably in preschool. I remember my mom was standing at the top of a big hill and i was sliding down the hill. I could stop, i couldn't reach her. I woke up that night to my mom by my side because i guess i was screaming her name. It doesn't matter if i don't have the same pillow but i do still have the same room. The same memories. When i lay down on my pillow at night i pray to god to let me dream of something happy.